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~ Friday, April 20 ~
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Withdraw from our senses and as well as from all prejudices

This is a message to all who have a skewed view on the Christian religion. As a Christian we have a bad name for ourselves, I think. From stories of hating gays to immoral acts within the church and outside the church. But, we are not perfect for we are only human. We are not perfect but forgiven. Some Christians might say that their call in christ is to act a certain way and to do a certain task. My perception doesn’t really delineate to these beliefs(hating gays, etc). Christ tells us to come as we are. Those who are in sin and those who are not. Those who are hurting and have no exit plan except failure and death, and those who have everything. I know for most of you this idea of submission to Christ is incomprehensible but just bear with me.

Everyone has their dispositions. And in these dispositions there are things that annex our hearts and our minds. I’m talking about everyone, believer in what ever and non believer. We all have our integrity and we all have our virtues. Some higher than others, some lower than others. As a Christian I believe we need to humble ourselves from time to time, if not all the time, and use some effort to meet people where they are. No matter who they are. I know you (Christian) wouldn’t like it if someone invaded your beliefs like you are trying to do theirs. If you try to hoax your audience it will turn out bad and will only leave them with a bad taste in their mouth and a skewed view of what ever you were trying to preach. Evangelizing is a relationship. It is love between two people. Because love is loyalty sworn, and not a burning for the moment. Think about that. Now, don’t get me wrong. You should stand up for what you believe in no matter what, but, be aware of the audiences. What would Jesus do? How would he act? Think about the empathetic side to it. The love, the compassion, the embracement. Most are so gung-ho on Christianity that they forget to understand the person first.

I believe we should all(not just Christians) be quick to listen and slow to react. “Patience is a virtue” as they say. We should walk away with a feeling of certitude that we didn’t try to mediate their lives but we tried to shine some light on it. We shouldn’t attest our feelings and motives but be gracious and humble to theirs(feelings). Without trust you have nothing. We shouldn’t try to be arbitrators in this “grudge match” but we should attend to emotions and ex lives. Because most people don’t perceive things as it is but they perceive things as they are, the people.

I’m all about the people. I’m all about their emotions and the compassion towards them, the way Jesus was compassionate to you when you came to Him weary, broken, and lost. My main point is to be quick to listen, and slow to react. Everyone has a story just like you did. It’s a matter of a relationship and growth that will influence that persons life in the long run. It’s not about numbers and it’s not about recruitment to me, it’s about compassion and love. However, you cannot run on one impulse of your own nature and set it up as the thing to follow at all costs without justice, because you will find yourself somewhere dark and lost and someone who you thought you were will be far gone (C.S Lewis’ Mere Christianity Page 11-12).

I just wanted to shed some light on the dark world of our inner motivations. Hope needs a humble hand. If Christianity is the hope of this world, we should too give the world our humble hand.


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~ Tuesday, October 25 ~
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Religion

Lately I’ve been fascinated by Atheism and their beliefs. As a christian it’s difficult to take on these Atheists and everything they present to the table. I think the number one thing to remember is that it’s a test of faith and to not falter under their logical thinking. I’m not saying that they are dumb, it’s just I don’t think they have taken the time or have experienced God. How can they say there is no God by just going based on science? They can’t prove our testimony wrong, it’s the experience we went through, the encounter with God which keeps us going. 

Antony Flew was an atheist who realized that the earths creation was too complex for science. 

For Flew, it is the argument from design that shows that the existence of God is probable. He has been impressed by recent scientific developments that suggest that the universe is the product of intelligent design. “It now seems to me that the findings of more than fifty years of DNA research have provided materials for a new and enormously powerful argument to design,” explains Flew.

And it’s not only science or the universe. It’s the way of life. Christianity is a way of life. The Bible is a tool to use in this love deprived world. People were created to Love and be Loved. So many people don’t get to experience this love and that’s where our jobs as Christians come into play. To love, to build relationship and to change lives. I don’t care if you convert. I just want you to know that I love you no matter what. And that is something that has been taken away from many people. I see so many broken relationships between parent and child and people to people. And then you want to move forward based on your own understanding? How do you expect to change these people? To get to the depths of their inner being and inner mind? With God, ALL things are possible. 

How can you say that the only way to survive this world is to work together and that there is no God? So therefor you are saying that we are going to live our lives based on the notion that we will get through this together? People and people? On our own understanding? False! Where are you getting your moral foundation from? 

People are not perfect, therefor if you want to move forward in life with other imperfect people guiding you along it won’t work. What happens when you hit financial troubles? or when someone is sick? or when you are in an emotional state of mind? Where will you go? People? They will let you down because they are IMPERFECT. That’s why we need God. Because He is perfect. 

If you have watched the movie The Rite it explains how evil is real. A man who is a non believe goes into a chapel with every intention to debunk God and his existence, only to later find out Good and Evil do exist and God does in fact exist. How can you explain the exorcist? 

How can you bash something until you’ve tried/experienced it? 

I am open to Atheism but I know it doesn’t work because I’ve tried it! That’s why I gave my life to Jesus Christ because I felt this unconditional love and I built a moral foundation on the scriptures. We can’t go based on human thinking and our own foundations. It won’t work. That’s why our nation (USA) was based on God, the foundation for moral law. (http://morallaw.org/America_Acknowledges_God.html)

You need to understand that God and the bible isn’t a fairy-tale. It’s the truth, the foundation, the way of life. Without God we will build walls with no foundation. God and the scripture should be something you think about in everything you do. Read C.S Lewis and Richard Foster! These guys have been there, done that. Tried it and failed. They know that discipline in God is required to live a productive life. To know that when you encounter a problem, God is the center of it. He is your moral foundation. 

How can you fight against Ravi Zacharias and William Lane Craig? Richard Dawkins won’t even take on Craig! That should say enough! 

“A man rejects God neither because of intellectual demands nor because of the scarcity of evidence. A man rejects God because of a moral resistance that refuses to admit his need for God.”

- Ravi Zacharias

People don’t want to be held accountable for doing the right thing either. It’s too difficult so they take the easier route by just doing what suffices. Well what suffices isn’t going to change society. You won’t find strength by what suffices. 

Most people can’t accept Christianity because it’s a leap of faith. It’s trusting that A. There is a God and B. I’m gonna put all my eggs into one basket and live a Holy life. It’s all trust and trusting that God will provide. Most people are so broken inside already in this world that it is difficult for them to trust. Whether they come from broken homes or rich homes. Trust is becoming extinct in this world. Because with trust comes a deep intimate relationship with another human being which is intruded by temptation, evil and wrongdoings. (ie: you will tell your friend a secret, trust them, and they will go tell someone else) It’s hard to put trust into people therefor it’s difficult to trust God because that’s how you function as a human being. It starts from when you were little and how you were raised. Then you look for something to fill the void that won’t ever be filled without the Lord.

God is an experience to me amongst other things. You can’t tell me what I’ve experienced is wrong until you have one of your own. Therefor you can’t sit here and tell me there is no God. It’s an insult. I’ll take it because I am forgiving and I forgive you for your narrow mindedness, lack of understanding and lack of effort in really figuring out why this person believes in God rather than researching things online. Which brings me to my next point where people like to live in their bubbles rather than branch out to go in depth to find out what a person is about. It’s easier to not care. It’s easier to not face your fears.

Just some stuff that’s been treading around in my head. thought I’d share. 

 


~ Saturday, August 6 ~
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I can’t shake this fire you have lit inside of me

Oh God, my God. My soul thirsts for You. I wanna get to know you so intimately. I long for you Jesus. I long for your presence. I am so overwhelmed by how much I love You.If ever you came near, I’d hold up high a mirror, Lord I can never show you anything as beautiful as you. I want to know you, I want to see your face. All I’ve seen is just a glimmer in a shadowy mirror but I know one day we’ll see face to face. I want to live everyday for you God. You are the everlasting God. Help me devote 2-3 hours of my day to soak in your presence so I can know You more. There’s a fire you have lit inside of me and it will never burn out. There is a fire that burns for You. Only you bring me peace and love and satisfaction. It’s in you I find ALL my strength. It’s in you I take refuge. From You is my being. Your love is extravagant. Lord I wanna yearn for You. I wanna burn with passion over You and only You. Lord I want my life to be based on prayer, to breathe is to pray. I am willing to change oh God. If I didn’t have You as my guide, I would have never of laid in this grave of a body for so long. I want a life of greater, deeper, truer prayer. Renew my mind. I love you so much I can’t take it. Use me in the kingdom and in life and to each individual I meet. I devote my entire life to you. I lay down everything I have to you and for you. There is nothing else in this life I desire more than to be close(r) to You. There is nothing else I desire more than to build an intimate relationship with you and the Holy Spirit. My heart breaks for what breaks Yours God. There is nothing else that matters at the end of my day except for you and your word. I wanna draw closer. Help me draw closer. We’re all looking for something to put our hope in. Let people see that this isn’t some cracked out religion God. Lord I am real. Help me change lives. Help me renew lives. Whatever it takes I’m ready. IF NOT NOW, WHEN GOD. It starts now! It starts right now and right here! Wherever you are. Use what you have and impact what is around you. My satisfaction is in you and only you. Oh You bring hope to the hopeless God. I found myself in you Lord. Thank you so much. I am a pilgrim, a voyager. I won’t rest until my lips touch the shore, of the land that I’ve been longing for as long as I’ve lived, where there’ll be no pain or tears anymore. 

Romans 5: ”We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance. And endurance produces character and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”


~ Sunday, July 31 ~
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A face is just a face. A body is just a body. What lies underneath is what is most important. We’re all looking for love in all the wrong places. Flesh only gets you so far. Focus.

What does it mean to have a relationship with someone else? I think it’s so deep and mentally intimate with each other. When you’re 40 or even in the late 20’s flesh becomes so routine. What did you really fall in love with? What did you really build your relationship on? I think that being able to be real with that person and talk and just rejoice together is what it’s mostly about. It starts with self. Are you capable on being happy and satisfied with being alone? And if you’re not, where are you seeking your happiness? Is it in something that’s going to become or has already become a cycling triviality?

The biggest factor is knowing what it is exactly you need more than what you want in order to function with someone else. Does that person fulfill it? Now, don’t get me wrong, it’s not everyday Mr or Mrs perfect comes prancing into your life but if you have a grasp on what it is you require and stick with it despite all the faces and all the flesh, it will be best thing you do. In the midst of all that, I believe, God is really the only thing/person that will lift you up; knowing him and reading the scriptures and being in his presence. That’s what brings me my joy. I never thought I would ever develop a relationship with Him but when everything in your life wipes away and there’s nothing to fall on HE IS ALL YOU HAVE; He should be your first thing you fall on. It is the best/worst thing to happen to me. Worst because of how much pain and anger you go through but it’s the best because you realize that HE is always going to be there and all that pain has already been paid for on the cross. All you need to do is ask and call on His name. 

So just remember the next time you fall for your next crush or go back into your ways, take a step back and understand what you need and if you are mentally ready for it. Next time you look for love and compassion in all the wrong places whether it’s flesh or an object or a substance, there is already someone who unconditionally loves you and his name is Jesus Christ. I speak from experiences. 

Some of you may not believe in God and just believe in coincidences but let me tell you, the more I pray and the more I cry out to my Saviour is when those coincidences seem to happen more. There is an untamed flame that I desire. 

Philippians 3:13-14Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching FORWARD to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”



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~ Monday, July 25 ~
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No Bulls Hit

When they say the truth will set you free, I think they mean free from yourself. Free from conviction which will later turn into condemnation within yourself if you don’t deal with it properly or in time. So why not just say what’s on your heart and be real with yourself as well with others? Imagine a world with no judgement. As I wake up every morning and go about my day, I understand that if you don’t stand up for what you believe in, you’re not really your own person. Therefor, you’ll follow the example of other people instead of building a solid foundation of self. I have built my foundation on the Truth and that is the word of God, the word of Righteousness.

I whole heartedly believe living my life based out of righteousness and based on The New Testament is the way all people should live their lives. I sit here and type this because I grew up in a Hindu home. I know what it’s like and all about. However, I later converted to Christianity because my life was better after I experience God and the Holy Spirit. God showed me the world in a whole different way by introducing me to The Bible. I was Happy every single day of my life because I knew that at the end of the day, Alcohol or Drugs or Porn or any Vice wasn’t going to satisfy my thirst for composure except rejoicing in the Word and the Living God, Christ Jesus. 

Fear. Everyone in this world is so afraid of losing people. So afraid to the point where they will change so much in order to keep them around. Why not be yourself? Be real People!!!! The Truth is becoming extinct. Real people are becoming extinct. Love is becoming extinct. People are so broken nowadays that if you asked their definition of Love, their responses would make your heart break for theirs. We can’t even be real in our little clicks of friends! How do we move forward? We treat each other like cars in an assembly line. We are all Human beings who have emotion and feeling and history and backgrounds. Instead of getting to know someone, the easier thing to do is avoid it, or to talk smack about someone instead of fixing the problem. Learn to understand and own up to your half.

Everyone is broken and no one is perfect. WE ALL SUCK. So why not rejoice together? Stop being worried about judgment or acceptance from other people because that price was already paid on the cross. The only acceptance you need is of God’s Love and once you enter that journey, I will GUARANTEE you you’re life will be so much better. You will lose people on the way, friends and family. I believe that sacrifice is worth it. 

My challenge to myself and anyone who reads this is to be real and honest and righteous. Be an example of God, be an example of Love. Have compassion. Let your heart break for what breaks His. 

Imagine if the whole world rejoiced together. What a beautiful vision. It starts with one person at a time. People aren’t numbers, they are human beings just like you and me. Treat them with emotion. Treat them with Love. If we won’t do it, who will? 

Love God. Love People. 


~ Monday, February 7 ~
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It’s crazy how people are in your life and the role they play in it. The painting just keeps getting bigger and more intricate. I’ve tried to map out the people in my life and how they have affected me. I’ve been in a relationship for 3 years and for God to give me a message to end it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. The second hardest thing is now dealing with that decision I made because God had told me to do it. And now so many other variable enter the picture which makes you doublethink and DOUBT but that is nothing but evil i think, because as distinct the calling from God, you KNOW that you made the right decision. 

Although there are some little things that come into play such as ending the relationship on good terms where both parties understand and have come to a mutual agreement on what is next and how they will be loyal to each other while we walk individually with God. 

How can we live out life by our own judgment? It’s going to fail us one way or another. How do we let God control our decisions, every decision. How does that process of “giving it to God” even supposed to roll out? I mean, we always try to fix the problems ourselves and we end up failing or it ends up falling apart. I believe very strongly that if it’s not in HIS will then it will fall apart. I’ve heard so many stories of married couples being together for years and it ending in divorce because one party had a strong call from God that they never full filled when they were supposed to and they ended up marrying someone they were never supposed to marry. 

What happens when two people have the same message from God but it conflicts one another because only one calling can actually be the truth and the other was just mere emotions and affection which took over our mind and our view on “God speaking to us”? How do we decipher God’s thoughts from our own? It’s like in Spiderman, with Great power, comes Great responsibility. We have this Power of God and his Holy Spirit but that comes with a huge responsibility which consists of living maturely as a Christian and making wise decisions and having wisdom. 

When are we going to crack out of our eggshell and bloom into the person we never thought we could be? Who knows what life has in store for us down the line but I’m learning that we just need to forget about the past, in some cases, and move forward to the upward calling of God in Jesus Christ because that is what ultimately matters in life. 

There is nothing at the end of my day that satisfies my thirst more than dwelling on the scripture and the Holy presence of God. Everything else is just a mere blur and you learn to lean on the Cross instead of trying to hold yourself up. Don’t let the darkness eat you up, for in darkness a light shines on me and on you. 


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~ Friday, January 28 ~
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We need to start looking at the positives in life. We’re so concentrated on the negatives and how everything isn’t going to work. How can nothing work when you have God almighty on your side? I’m preaching to myself as I write this. 

There is so much struggle and not enough positive battle against it. We have the scriptures and the presence of God and the authority of God to press through it. This is not a time to be weak and weary but to overcome. I see myself always ending up where I started and where I went wrong. Why can’t we drift away from all that so that we can be made clean and God can begin to transform us into stronger people, into stronger Christians. What is the point to live if we’re not living for HIM. All of this means nothing in the end. Evil is automatically fed into our minds to make us double think about everything and we’re not strong enough to do it and for those who think they are, for those who try to fight the battle of loneliness and struggle by themselves will guaranteed fail. When do we take that step into God for him to take control. Because it’s only through him that it can be done. 

Philippians 3:14 says “I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus”

Forget about the past and move on to what really matters. Let the rest of the people do what they want. It’s not worth the hassle to try and fix them or direct them. It’s not your job to do that. Leave that up to God to handle, pray for them. What really ultimately matters is your work and your walk in the kingdom of God. Press forward and don’t let the distractions stand in your way. Leave it up to God to handle that relationship issue. Leave it up to God to handle the bills you can’t pay. He WILL provide for you. He will never leave you. His presence is for eternity. Love him. 

I keep this verse in my pocket at all times and when I do struggle I pull it out and remind myself that my road is the road towards redemption and Glory. Keep walking side by side with the Lord and he will see your sacrifices and your heart. He knows you so well and he knows where your heart is. He knows where you hurt and struggle. He will not leave you.

He will NEVER leave you. At the end of the day when everything is looking like it’s going downhill the only thing you have is the word of God and his forgiveness and his blood that he shed for you on the Cross. Remember that. He loves you so much. 

Stop trying to fight the battle alone. What your looking for has been sitting right in front of you this whole time and that is Gods forgiveness, grace and mercy. 


~ Wednesday, January 26 ~
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We need to start putting our hope in something greater than man and that is God. I’ve learned throughout my Christian life that HE will NEVER let you down. You might think he has but you can’t see the greater picture, the plan he has for you. It’s all in his works. He will never put you through something you can’t handle. And handling “it” consists of dwelling on scripture and being in his presence. It’s going to be hard but I wouldn’t expect it to be any easier. I mean he is molding us into strong, firm human beings. Everyday I strive to be more and more like the Lord. He is perfect and the most powerful, The Great One. 

Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for peace and not for evil, to give you a future and a HOPE…”

Despite all the troubles of the world I know that at the end of the day I have the scripture and the presence of God. Everything else you consider as a solution to your problems (ex: drugs, alcohol, etc…) will only do the job for a short period of time. Because in the morning it will be there again. Instead of trying to fix our problems ourselves or putting hope in man we need to look for a higher calling. Someone who has already shed his blood on the cross for our sins. Believe it, and if you don’t then it’s not too late to start. 


~ Tuesday, January 25 ~
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Love is a pretty little thing and we take it for granted


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This journey is hard. God is forming me, molding me into something I can only see from the distance. I know that I am meant to live for so much more than this. These past couple of nights have been rough and I have had to sacrifice a good amount of things to get to where God has called me to be, I am still going to have to sacrifice. I guess it’s part of the deal. All I know is that it’s worth it. Because where God is, I want to be. I can say that whole heartedly. I don’t expect anyone to understand. 

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I’ve been missing you girl. 

Reading The ESV Holy Bible, listening to Dustin O’ Halloran.

This journey is hard. God is forming me, molding me into something I can only see from the distance. I know that I am meant to live for so much more than this. These past couple of nights have been rough and I have had to sacrifice a good amount of things to get to where God has called me to be, I am still going to have to sacrifice. I guess it’s part of the deal. All I know is that it’s worth it. Because where God is, I want to be. I can say that whole heartedly. I don’t expect anyone to understand. 

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I’ve been missing you girl.